Monday, February 22, 2010
How Am I Doing?
Someone asked me how I was doing today. I said "fine". It's easier and quicker to say "fine" instead of the list below.
Today I don't have very much Jesus left inside of me.
Church folks can make me crazy. I am very sure that I drive many of them crazy too.
I don't understand why I get so angry.
I can be extremely negative, cynical, judgmental and critical of others.
My battle with food is harder than my battle with alcohol.
When you are trying to stay sober (I've been sober over 4 months now) it's not easy being around people who are drinking.
I can remember horrible things I thought, did or said from years and years ago but I can't remember what my wife asked me to get at the store ten minutes ago.
I spend more time examining others instead of examining myself.
At the end of the day there are many times I would rather lay on the couch and "tune out" instead of participating and engaging with my family.
I spend too much time doing things that aren't really important.
I wish I could actually go back and apologize to all of the people I have hurt.
It's not easy being the husband, father and friend that I need to be.
It's easier to do things that are bad for me. It's hard for me to do things that are good for me.
I am still holding on to grudges from things that happened to me a long time ago.
There are times that I am nicer to complete strangers than my close friends and family.
It's hard to go to church when you've just had a fight with your wife in the church parking lot.
I don't know everything.
I've done more damage to myself than anyone else.
I might be too open and honest with others about my faults.
I am thankful that God forgives and loves me.