"Accountability is worthless if you aren't willing to be accountable."--Gary Lamb
When I am struggling, depressed, lonely, at the end of my rope or battling with one of my myriad of messy issues what is the last thing I want to do?
How about if I tell you the first thing I want to do?
Eat dozens of Dunkin Donuts. Drink myself into oblivion. Do something irresponsible. Yell and scream at all of the wrong people for all of the wrong reasons. Pull away from the people I love. Crawl into a cave. Isolate myself.
What is the last thing I want to do?
Call a friend or call out to God.
Why is this always the last thing I want to do? I will expose my weaknesses. Share the real me and the ugly truth. My cracks will show. I won't look like the perfect husband, father, friend or Christian anymore.
This week I plan on exposing my cracks and crap to a couple of trusted friends. It's going to be hard. It will be a little easier with God. He's already seen all of my cracks and crap. I don't know how my friends will handle it but I know how God will deal with it. With open arms, He'll offer me love, mercy and forgiveness.
"And he arose and came to his father. But while he was yet at a distance, his father saw him and had compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him." -- Luke 15:20