I haven't had the best week. I haven't been the best father. I haven't been a good husband. My relationship with my daughter isn't great. It's been a tough week in the marriage department. I admit I'm not the greatest at relationships. I beat up on myself when things aren't going well at home(See, I'm beating up on myself in this post). I place way too much importance on what people think of me.
I was at a party over the weekend feeling sorry for myself because everyone else was drinking and I wasn't(I've been sober for over 7 months). Suddenly someone who had too much wine mentioned a song from Pearl Jam. I didn't think about it again until just moments ago. I looked up the song on YouTube and found the lyrics.
God knows me like no one else. He wanted me to hear this song before I started my week. He whispered to me through the words of Pearl Jam: "It's OK. You know I love you anyway". You'll find the lyrics and clip below. I pray that as you listen to this song and read the lyrics you'll hear God whisper to you, "It's OK. You know I love you anyway".
Vedder to Crowd:
"I'm going to stand here with you. I'm going to give you a part, I say 'It's OK and you say 'It's O.k.'"
It’s ok…
Vedder and crowd -It’s ok!
It’s ok
Crowd: It’s ok
You don’t have to run and hide away
It’s ok
It’s ok
You know I love you anyway
This is my chance, this is my life,
This is my hope in an alleyway
This is my chance, this is my voice
There may be no more tomorrow
This is my plea
This is my need
And my time of standing free
This is my step
This is my day
And the world is never the same
It’s ok
It’s ok
You know I love you anyway
Its ok
It’s ok
You don’t have to run and hide away
It’s ok
It’s ok
It's ok ...
It's Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...
Oh It's kayyyyy"
"It's Okay" is definitely a great song. And I love Pearl Jam more than ANYONE (they are my favorite band - your mention of them led me to your blog) but "It's Okay" is not their song. They do an amazing cover of it. It's by Fred Cole, formerly of Dead Moon. But, trust me, start listening to PJ and your life will change.
ReplyDeleteSorry you're having a tough week... but hang in there...this, too, shall pass. :)
ReplyDeleteIsn't it awesome how God chooses to speak to us? We have such a great and awesome God! :)
ReplyDeleteAnd I thought I was the only one....I connect to God thru Pearl Jam more than I do with most "worship" music! Nice post!
ReplyDeleteLove the post... It's amazing how God speaks to us isn't it. The first year of sobriety is so difficult. Praying for you, friend.
ReplyDeleteMike, I'm sorry for the days you don't do as well as on other days. I have bad news for you. They'll always be there, this side of Heaven. You'll always wish you'd done better. But even when you mess up, you are better now, to feel bad for it.
ReplyDeleteBTW, no matter what, you know I love you anyway.
Pearl Jam speaks to me and has been since 1990 when Ten made its way into my life.
ReplyDeleteEver since, chills.
(I was going to make this a very dangerous comment, but up higher you talked about church, so I'll play it safe for now. You're lucky, mister.)
Glad to know that God loves me anyway, cuz somedays I don't love myself and I'm sure no one else loves me either.
ReplyDelete