Sunday, August 1, 2010
It Wasn't A Complete Surprise
My marriage has ended. A couple of weeks ago my wife said, "I'd like to move forward with divorce." It wasn't a complete surprise to me. We've been struggling for a long time. I understand that is was a challenge for her to be married to me. My wife would say that it wasn't just one thing that brought her to this decision. It was a myriad of issues over the course of our nearly 14 years together. Being married to a man who battles with depression, food and alcohol is not a walk in the park.
Since she delivered this news to me I've reverted back to my destructive habits. I've lost track of how many times I've blown my sobriety. I haven't been exercising and I'm eating everything and anything that's not nailed down. Today, after eating an entire Chinese buffet, I got sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I will post thoughts on this blog at the end of each day. I know that God's strength is the only thing that will get me through the process of divorce.
"If your heart is broken, you'll find God right there; if you're kicked in the gut, he'll help you catch your breath."
-- Psalm 34:18 (The Message)